Peace for your Soul?

I felt a post coming on when I woke up this morning! It has been a tough couple of days for me. For one, the time change has wreaked havoc on my body. Right now I am struggling to keep myself from going to take a nap. Yesterday, I succumbed to the urge to take a nap and today I am trying to fight the good fight.

Another reason why I having a hard time is that I am struggling with work. I am sure that everyone struggles with work to some degree so this is not abnormal, just tiring. My good friend, Meryal would say this is just an opportunity to grow! You either grow or wither up and die-that's my take on it.

I also realized this morning that I forgot to pay a bill. I think, if I remember correctly from someone's website, is that today is National Clean Your Home Office Day and mine really needs it. I am a terrible "stacker". Yes, I suffer from this awful stacking disease. It is a generational stacking disorder. When people are coming over I just go through the kitchen and living room and frantically stack all of the papers together and then stick them in some remote corner of the house. Later, I find the stack with everything from kids artwork, to bills, to homework that Caleb was supposed to do. I should sticking them somewhere that I could find them easier like the microwave or something.

Anyway, the point to this post is that all day I have been looking for ways to console my soul. I just feel this yucky, antsy feeling all over. My natural inclination is to worry and go take a nap to get rid of that awful feeling. That's called denial for those of you who are reading into this! Sometimes the nap part helps, but I never really get to the bottom of the heart issue. What I am wondering is what do you do when you get that yucky feeling that things are out of control and you are not coping well?

Do you eat? I do sometimes. Do you just worry yourself to death? I do a lot. Do you listen to music? Do you read the Word and shake the Word until something falls down from Heaven to help you? Do you read a book on the topic that is bothering you? What do you do to console yourself and to really help you deal with the heart issue? I would love to hear from you.


John Mark said...

I'll comment. I think you have good thoughts here (cutie). And I like the way you state them.

When I'm bothered, I usually stew for a while and get grouchy. Or I go check out my hot wife. :-) Best is when I talk things over with someone like you. Just having someone who really listens and asks critical questions is very helpful.

Unknown said...

thank you JM. I can always count on you to be my #1 blogging friend! love you!

Momma said...

Hey Desiree,

I know exactly what that feeling is like! I felt it when I was looking over my to-do list for the week. I do a myriad of things to overcome the feeling--probably every single one of those things that you mentioned. Especially the food part :(

I am a list-maker so it helps me to make a list of all the things I need to do. I am a stacker too :( Once per week I will grab all the stacks and go through them. Then I curse myself for not sorting them as I went. Then I do the same thing the next week.

The bills thing I think I have down though--I have a folder right next to the computer. When a bill comes, I write it down--in fact I keep a running list of all the bills so I KNOW if I haven't gotten the bill yet and sometimes I will look it up online to make sure I have paid it. Sometimes my efficiency in this area backfires. It's a long story, but one month I accidently marked off one bill when I had really paid another one...the bank guy was pretty understanding though, even though I told him I was positive that the mistake was theirs--when it turns out it wasn't. Oops.

Today I have had an overwhelming feeling that I have too much going on and that I need to stay home more--take a whole week off and just stay home with the kids (you would have to see my calendar to see how impossible that is!). I don't know if that is me sticking my head in the sand or what.

Hang in there. My fave song on days like this is that Amy Grant song "In a Little While".


Unknown said...

I need to get some organization in the bill world like you. Today I feel a little more focused. I hope that I can get the things done that are important and make me feel sane (even if I'm not). I hope your to-do list shortens today too! Have a great day!